Drifter

I stumbled across a poem I wrote a few years ago when I was going through a lot in my life. I think sometimes we all feel this way, sometimes no matter how strong of a Christian we are we question the reality of God's Love for us...

Drifter:
I'm a drifter these wings and heart of mine.
One day I'm walking in the Light and the next shadows are all I see.
Something happens, I'm on the bottom again.
The trust I had in God has fallen down like a building crumbling to the ground.
I'm lost I don't know where to go;
I'm not ready to turn and walk back into His supposedly open arms.
Alone, alone is what I feel in this battle for my soul

Your Wrod promises, "I will never leave you nor forsake you"
So whether or not I can see or feel you, OR whether or not I want to,
You Are Here with me??

Even when my wings become heavier with my own fears and doubts
You Are Here with me!

Right now your "promises" seem so empty.
These questions keep coming to my mind.
Where are you?
I miss your smile I miss you laugh!
Does it help to say I love you?

You know, they all say that I do not know how much you love me,
but where is that love now?
Another day spent in the shadows.

I sit and stare at the window with the closed blinds
fearing that letting in the sunshine will let in the hope that I'm longing for.
Guided by a simple faith.
I love what i cannot see, the one i cannot touch.
The one that knows me better than I do, I love you.

These wings of mine won't fly with out you,
I hate feeling lonely,
I need your love,
I need your Mercy,
I need your Grace,
I need your LOVE.

Remove the doubt that makes me so unsure.
You say come to me with faith like a child then I will enter into your Glory;
So that's it?
I have to loose all the formality, loose all the guilt and just say yes Jesus I love you
because you love me?

Yes Jesus, I love you!

but,
right now your "promises" seem so empty.
These questions keep coming to my mind.
Where are you?
I miss your smile,
I miss your laugh!
Does it help to say I love you?

You know they all say that I do not know how much you love me,
but where is that love now?
Does it help to say i love you?
Does it help to say I love you?
Does it help to say I love you?
I love you, I love you, I love you...

title

Hello,
Well I guess you all are wondering the title of my blog...? "Nate's Mom" Well its not to hard to figure out, I have a son named Nathanael. He's 10 months old and is getting more and more independent everyday. Here's a picture, i think he's the cutest thing since sliced bread, but I may be a little prejudice.
So whats in a name?? When my husband and I were discussing names we agreed on Nathanael, and we found it in the bible John 1:45, it means "gift from God" and he really is a gift from God, I thank God everyday for him!!!

~BecKy

Submissive Wifes

dear blog readers (if there are any),

today is Wednesday, hump day, the week is almost over! Its HOT i really enjoyed the rain and cooler weather we had last week...

The thing thats really been on my heart and mind lately is being a submissive wife. Last month I celebrated my 2 year anniversary with my Husband. We've had our ups and our downs but we still love each other and we're committed to working out our differences.

Now I'm gonna come out and say it, being submissive, I really don't know what that means. We all know about the scripture in Ephesians 5 that says " 22Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. 23For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church..."

so does that mean that I cook and clean and iron, and do everything to serve my husband and not expect anything back from him??

or does that mean that I help him where he needs help??

and what about appreciation am i supposed to feel appreciated after I work 40+hours a week and come home to work more???

I'm really struggling with this, so women, wifes, husbands what do YOU think??

back online!

Hey there!

I first started blogging back in 2005, i have since then deleted that blog and have decided to start fresh.

I've been without a connection to the internet or a reliable computer for almost 3 years, having internet connection and a reliable computer is a privilege this world seems to take advantage of, but if you're poor and struggling, internet and a computer are far from being on the forefront of your mind when you're trying to squeeze every last dime out of your paycheck just to survive.

Needless to say I've got a job now where I can spend a few minutes a day updating my new blog etc. and slowly but surly I see myself slowly coming back to this techno-advanced world we all live in.

-BecKy