Pit Dwelling Day 2

Pit Dwelling

In day two of the book, I read about two things, one was that sometimes we can take our pits with us wherever we go. She used the example of a family who lived in their mobile home for years, all of them just slept, ate, showered, etc, in there small mobile home. One day a home with a room for each child a spacious kitchen, and more yard space than they needed was given to them, and instead of getting out of their mobile home and moving into their new home, they just drove their mobile home right straight into the living room taking out a few walls on the way. All of their cramped living spaces, and mobile home smells came into their new home just as fast as they did, and became a permanent fixture in their living room! What a mental picture! This is SO true for me! I didn't really understand it until I read this...a quote from her journal (pg 9).

"No matter where we go, a pit can always fit. On any path we can spin our wheels and throw mud until we dig a ditch right into the middle of an otherwise decent job or relationship. Soon our hearts sink with the dismal realization that we're no better off in our new situation. The scenery around us may have changed, but we're still living in that same old pit. We start scrambling to figure out how we're going to dump an unpleasant person or position when the real solution may be to dump that pit we dragged in."

Everywhere I've been, and every relationship I have been in I think that Ive brought bitterness and un-forgiveness, and dis-order, with me. These items coming from way back as far as my childhood. And it means that Ive got some forgiveness to do, and some bitterness to let go of! It also means that I have to work at bringing order to my house, and by that I mean stop thinking i'm a college student and start acting like I'm an adult, my house won't clean its self, my trash won't go out its self, and my laundry will only pile up unless I bite the bullet and just do it! I feel that once I get some order to my house then I will feel less stressed and that will lead to less depression, and less chaos! WHOA! Thats a lot, but now I see it!!!!! and BOY do I WANT OUT OF THIS PIT!!!


The second thing I learned was about the three different ways you can get into a pit, 1. you can get thrown in, meaning something tragic can place you in a pit even when you didn't cause it. 2. you can slip into a pit, you can walk that fine line and just one day find yourself slipping into the pit. and 3. you can jump into the pit, you can chose to jump into a pit, not sure how all of those happen, but I do know that I think I've been a victim to all three ways of being in a pit. Yea I said it, I think i've been thrown in, slipped in, and jumped into a pit at one point and time in my life. Does that mean I like it? NO! Does that mean I want to do it again? NO! Does that mean that I got comfortable in my pit(s)? Probably...

I cannot wait to read more about how to get out of my pit and how I can keep myself from getting into future pits. Until then I will continue to work on getting my life less chaotic and more under control and clean!

~Beck~