5 years

5 years! I cannot believe its been 5 years! 5 years ago I got up the guts to leave my emotionally abusive ex husband. I called my little sister and mother and they helped me get from Dallas to KC, one of the hardest, yet best things I have done in my life. (besides giving birth to my son) I will forever be grateful to all of my family for helping me and N get through all the transitions and become whole again. A lot has changed in 5 years. I am one semester away from graduating from seminary. Ive been appointed in a church for 2 years now. I feel like I have reclaimed a lot of my identity as a woman and as a Child of God, which is amazing! However I did realize recently that some of my emotions and feelings (especially being single for 5 years now) are still tied to what my ex-husband thought of me, or how he treated me. I am still bound to these images and feelings and I am sick and tired of it. Then there is my weight, which is tied to my emotions. So this is my next 5 year goal. Become 100% liberated from any residual ex-husband ex-marriage junk. also in the next 5 years I want to --loose 100lbs. --Become Ordained --Learn and excel at espanol --Learn to play guitar and maybe I should say blog regularly. I'm still working on that one. To all those women out there (and men) who are surviving in emotional or physical abusive relationships. There is help, it is okay for you to stand up for yourself, and you can get out! I can't wait for the next 5 years, I promise to try and blog a bit more :-) ~Bec