Week Three--FOOD ADICT

Week Three
WOW I cannot believe its been Three WEEKS!

I have lost 5 pounds. That's it, yes only 5 pounds. Nothing like the 'biggest looser'. I am a little discouraged by my number on the scale. I thought I was doing SO good.

I have to remember that at least I'm not gaining weight, and I am 5 pounds lighter, if I keep this up (about 5 pounds a month) that's 60 pounds in a year. (Thanks to my little sister for this reminder)

I'm feeling a little better, I'm not as sluggish, I don't always feel the need to nap or rest, and when I work out I feel really good about myself. I keep telling myself It's just NOT enough.

THEN I stumbled across this website:
Are You a Food Addict?
Whether the obsession with food is a true addiction or simply a bad habit, one thing is clear: Your health is on the line. Obesity, psychological disorders, and diabetes are just a few of the health risks associated with compulsive eating.

If you're worried that you may have a food addiction, FoodAddicts.org recommends that you answer the following questions:

1. Have you ever wanted to stop eating and found you just couldn't?
2. Do you think about food or your weight constantly?
3. Do you find yourself attempting one diet or food plan after another, with no lasting success?
4. Do you binge and then "get rid of the binge" through vomiting, exercise, laxatives, or other forms of purging?
5. Do you eat differently in private than you do in front of other people?
6. Has a doctor or family member ever approached you with concern about your eating habits or weight?
7. Do you eat large quantities of food at one time?
8. Is your weight problem due to your "nibbling" all day long?
10. Do you eat to escape from your feelings?
11. Do you eat when you're not hungry?
12. Have you ever discarded food, only to retrieve it and eat it later?
13. Do you eat in secret?
14. Do you fast or severely restrict your food intake?
15. Have you ever stolen other people's food?
16. Have you ever hidden food to make sure you have "enough?"
17. Do you feel driven to exercise excessively to control your weight?
18. Do you obsessively calculate the calories you've burned against the calories you've eaten?
19. Do you frequently feel guilty or ashamed about what you've eaten?
20. Are you waiting for your life to begin "when you lose the weight?"
21. Do you feel hopeless about your relationship with food?

I answer YES to 12 of these. SO I guess the next thing I have to say is

HELLO MY NAME IS REBECCA AND I AM ADDICTED TO FOOD.

I never thought I would ever come to this. I never thought there could be an addiction to food, I mean we need it to survive. I never thought as a pastor, as a good person, that I'd ever be addicted to anything. But here I am 150 lbs over weight and struggling every single day with what goes in my mouth. SO now WHAT??? The only thing I can do for now is to keep up what I'm doing and pray real hard that God will miraculously change my mind about how I feel about food.

I see all these commercials about weight watchers, and Jenny, and what not, but I cannot afford a subscription to anything. Its hard enough affording fresh fruits a vegetables every week. that leads me to another question WHY are processed foods SO MUCH CHEAPER? WE ARE KILLING OURSELVES, RAISE THE PRICE of processed foods and LOWER THE PRICE OF LEAN MEAN AND FRESH PRODUCE!!!!!!! Maybe I should just start a garden...

I'm considering a cut in my calories. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I'm barely able to meet where I'm at now, but maybe that's my answer for better results. That's all for now folks, I'm gonna keep at it. I'll update you next week.