STRESS = BAD

SO
I've had 2 bad days this week. One was Monday when I forgot it was a holiday and that Nate didn't have school. I was exhausted from a busy weekend at work, and Nate was in this mood to where whatever we did he did not want to do it. SO I found myself away from home, away from my healthy food, and I jumped back into my old habits of running through a fast food place. The same thing happened yesterday on Thursday, I had appointments out all day, and I did not bring healthy food with me. however when I weighed this morning I did NOT re-gain those 3lbs, which made me feel better.

SO how do I deal with eating healthy and being away from home??? I guess I have to get into the head thought of "well before I leave the house I need to pack some food to go" which I can, that's just something else to adjust into my morning routine. My favorite new food that I actually tried and enjoyed this morning was Greek Yogurt with a little bit of granola.

The only thing I'm worried about my new healthy food kick, is Nate, I hope he will adjust to eating the new food, it will be just as good for him as it is for me. However ever since he was a baby he has been underweight and small so I never felt bad if he ate a lot of calories, his metabolism is nothing like mine!!
Next week, the 23rd. I have a J-Term (January term) class which meets from 8-5(ish) everyday for 1 week. then I have the last week of Jan. off and the spring semester starts Feb 6th. So I have until Feb 6th to get into a healthy eating routine. Lord help me!

Also like really my muscles ACHE from working out! yesterday my leg hurt so bad I didn't want to walk...I did, but I didn't want to move it! When I was more active (before marriage/child/grad school)I don't remember the aches and pains so bad, but maybe that's just because I'm getting old!

SO that's all for now folks. I'm working out tonight! I prob won't blog again until Monday as its another busy weekend!

its a battle--week one

It's a battle

I have to learn how to tell myself NO!

Tomorrow makes one week since I started this. I weighed myself...I'm three pounds lighter.

I feel no different, Im still tired, I still LOVE food, I guess I feel a little bit happeir that I'm eating healthier, but if I am honest, I feel no different. So I gotta keep it up.

I've been tracking my food intake and my exercise outtake on my iPhone/iPad using the Lose It App!



I LOVE it, It sends me a reminder when I don't log my things. It has all the foods I have eaten!

as far as working out goes, I worked out 3 times last week. I used to always opt for the elevator when I came to a set of stairs, now they don't seem as daunting. I am thinking about getting a treadmill at my house, not sure tho, I love the out doors I just hate the winter. For now tho I go to campus to work out because we have a small work out facility there. When I'm there I usually do the bike and the treadmill, on the treadmill I usually Walk the straights, and run/jog the curves.


this allows me to increase my heart rate for a few seconds, and then I calm down on the straight parts of the track, I usually do this for a mile, then I ride the bike for a mile or 15 min. whatever is longer. Not sure if this is the best work out for me, but that's what I do. I hope once I get into a cardio routine I can add weight lifting... I HATE, ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY HATE, MY FAT ARMS! If you have any tips on how to shrink my fat arms PLEASE let me know!

those are my thoughts for today...

scales

SO like I said I bought a scale, it's kinda fancy...its digital, I already hate it! I have actually gained 20lbs since giving birth AHH!! I cried, I'm SO discouraged. I'M SO SICK WITH MYSELF, I DISGUST MYSELF! ALL I can say is food is evil! maybe I'm just so upset because I haven't had soda in like 5 days and I REALLY MISS IT! Ya know kinda like an addict who gets cranky without a fix. THE HORRIBLE thing I ate a candy bar after I weighed myself, why? probably cause I was sad and it made me feel a bit better..I MUST get out of eating when I'm sad, it only hurts me more...

SO this morning I woke up, I did not eat breakfast, I was not hungry. I just now got hungry at about 1pm. This is what I made:



its a salad with grilled chicken, TOTAL CALORIES UNDER 300: I cut up 1 green pepper, 4 celery stocks, 2 roma tomatoes,6 baby carrots, and 1/2 a head of lettuce, tossed it all together and put about half of it in my bowl, the other half I'll have tomorrow. the best part was the dressing:



I made my own! I squeezed 1/4 of a lime and sprinkled kosher salt over my salad and tossed it together, the lime works its way into all the veggies and makes it tart kinda like an Italian dressing...how many calories? 10!!

I just ate it, and I'm still a tad hungry so I think i'll have a Kashi Granola bar, tons of protein and few calories.

ANY WAY I'm trying hard to not eat junk, its HARD, I LOVE SWEETS AND PASTRY'S! LOVE THEM!! I feel happier when I eat them, but when I look at the scale I HATE it... so I MUST STOP.

OH and I'm going out tonight...with a BOY...! ;-) stayed tuned! NIX THAT PLANS CHANGED... oh well nothing like a movie night with my lil man!

weight loss

SO when I started this blog it was supposed to be a journal of my weight loss struggles and successes etc. it kind of warped into just a general blog about my crazy life. In 2009 I started seminary and still had all my baby weight (Nate born in 2007), and started Seminary to pursue my calling and my Masters Degree. I have been up 20lbs and down 20lbs for the past 3+ years. Well its Jan 2012 and I am SO TIRED of being FAT! Its been 4 years since I've been in any sort of relationship with a man (I'm still taking applications!) not that I've had a whole lot of time to date, but it still stinks that Im almost 30 and do not have a boyfriend, I credit that to my busy life and STILL being obese! Well last semester I joined a support group called H.O.T. (Honoring our Temples) and we support each other on the process of the pains and joys of weight loss. I love this group, but with all the support I still have yet to loose a single pound this semester. I just don't give my health the energy I do to the rest of my life, I don't know why. It's just easier to grab fast food than think about being healthy, and fitting in exercise in MY busy life ha ha ha YEA RIGHT... well it's time to STOP taking the easy way out. The one thing I've learned in my line of work, and in seminary is that life is not easy and it takes a lot of hard work to be successful, so why not apply that line of thought into my weight loss?? I am the only one holding myself back, so lets DO this thing... what I HOPE to follow (and please those who read keep me motivated by asking me did you blog today??) are daily/weekly blogs/hopefully with photos to aid in my weight loss journey. It really STINKS being fat. My back hurts, I have headaches, my energy level is LOW I feel like I'm TIRED ALL THE TIME!
SO in the short what I've learned is the best foods to keep me going and feel less hungry are packed with proteins! WATER WATER WATER is the BESET way to not only Hydrate but keep the energy level up...which I promise you I HATE! why? I LOVE SODA-POP! I LOVE carbonation that taste, oh I miss it SO much, but really all I'm drinking is calories and sugar, which I'd rather EAT because I LOVE food so much.

SO HERE ARE 3 PICTURES of the first three days I started my new healthy life (again!) Tomorrow...I'm purchasing a scale, I have never purchased a scale, I never thought i'd weigh myself only because I never wanted to, but now I have to to keep me motivated and encouraged.


[an up close of my face, with my hair just thrown up and no make up on. AHH even I'm scared of looking at it!]


[yea I got the belly but there is no baby in there. and look at those arms, YUCK!]


an here is my daily, yes DAILY battle, I'M TIRED EVERY SINGLE DAY, how can one lose weight if I feel like I won't make it through the day without a nap? The theory is well if you get 8-10 hrs at night surely you don't need a nap right? right! but I've yet to get 8+ hours of sleep each night... it sad, I really need to work on regulating my sleep schedule!!


SO there is a pick of the first 3 days of eating healthy and exercising, i haven't weighted myself so I don't think I've lost weight, but as soon as I purchase that scale tomorrow i'll be weighing myself at least weekly. SO there's the blog post for the day...I have gotten rid of all the junk food in my cabinets and fridge, tomorrow I'll be grocery shopping, getting a lot of fresh fruits and veggies! If you have any encouraging words please feel free to share!!